From My Life in Navodaya and Here, In This World, I have something For You. So, Lets Begin;
You Know what, Sometimes People Call me “Intelligent”,
Well, That Time
Me: Oh Great,
Thats the best things anyone will love to listen.
For a Minute, I Feel Blushed, I Feel so Proud of Myself, But
It’s Not that Long Lasting…
Because Someone Inside me Tells me.
How is that even possible.
A Proper Debate Always Begin in my Mind,
and I think Today I have to Tell Everyone about it.
Hope it will let you know,
that You are Strong Enough and Better than Me, You are best of Yourself.
So, My Mind Says to me,
Recalling that Persons last Words, “Ankush, You are Intelligent”,
and Mine Warm Reaction to it Inside me “Oh Great”,
The Proper words my mind will use to me, “Fuck You Man” ,
(Now to those who are thinking I am using a Strong Abusive Language,
First of all I would Like to inform you is that here It means “To Go Away” , in Hindi “Bhaad me Jao”, So, Don’t Worry.
Secondly, Its My Mind saying to me, Not to anyone, so, Please NO OBJECTION in using the words for myself.
So, My Mind will say to me
“What the hell have you said, Oh Great,
You can’t be serious about it,
You are Not Intelligent.
Not Enough to Get Science stream,
You are same Guy, Who don’t understand a simple joke in one Go.
you are same guy, who can’t listen to bloody Stand Up Comedy Shows, Because they speak so fast, You don’t even get single word they say,
you are the same guy, who is not even given science stream, just because you hadn’t enough marks in Science & English.
You are the same guy, who were out of class in most of School Classes just because of not completing homework,
People have to repeat thrice to make you understand.
You can’t understand the jokes which people share in groups and gatherings,
You can’t play Even Play Candy Crush, Which is supposed to be most brain challenging game.
You are not even mature about yourself yet.
You don’t know how to handle cash in your pockets.
You are Not Supposed to be Intelligent, Smart or Something People Call You”
OH… So, It”s me Again, I Did Listened to myself saying me this, which is most de-motivational speech you can give to yourself or Anyone.
You are supposed to be curious about what I answered to Myself.
Well, For Me, I was really tense, Whatever my Mind Sad was Truth, It really was and It is really is,
I am Really Really This,
I Don’t Understand Someones Jokes, so Fast,
I am Slow, Like When You need Speed, I am Slow,
I don’t know about world,
I don’t know about Cars,
About Anything that People Know in General.
Anyone Asks about anything, I am Just Blank,
So Many Times, While Giving Speech, While Some Plays, I Just Paused to Infinity, I Forgot the whole Lines and All.
Only Thing I Know, A Little about Books, Computers, Devices etc.
I really wanted to Study in Science Stream, but I was a poor student, Poor student who don’t even have proper marks in Science & English. So, They Rejected me for Science and Thrown me for Financial Marketing Management.
And I am Pretty Sure that You will be agree with me too Now.
These are not supposed to be the characteristics of an Intelligent man.
or boy, Argh, Whatever.
Poor Ankush, Really Really Poor Dump Ankush…
So, If You Call me Intelligent Again, What I will Say,
“Sorry Man (Women, Whatever), You Don’t Know me Yet !”
OHO, Wait, Story is not Yet Over.
Lets Go to Other Side Now,
How did I managed to Bring me Up myself. Because I am now in Situation where
I myself had kicked myself down to the bottom.
How did I managed to Bring Mr. Poor Dumb Ankush to a Proper Living Being.
Lets Play Another Story,
First It was, My Mind VS Me,
Now, Its Me VS My Mind.
I Know, I am Not THE Intelligent Ankush Anand, But I am Also Not The Dumb One.
Let me Tell you Mr. Mind, When Science Students were busy in studying their never ending notes,
I was in bathroom, opening the plugs and switches with my only smuggled Screw Driver to my Hostel.
I was taking the unused switches out of their places and then on my bed or somewhere, extracting the every bit of it.
I was hanging around the Electrician Garbage, for some Electronics to hangover with.
I was Collecting Old Broken LED Lights, Old Batteries, and Wires and Create a Mini Bed Light + Switch for myself.
Everyday, I Used to Visit Every Single Classroom after Lunch, and Fix all their Emergency LED Lights. with a Single Screw Driver.
Nobody Knows That,
Well, Thats Not Enough Yet,
Someone Just Abused me ?, How Can I just be quit in this little bit.
I did collected all old Notebooks Every Year From my Friends,
Even Secretly From Class Teacher’s Collection of Notebooks. Tearing apart all the Blank & Unused Pages.
and Creating Little Beautiful New Looking Diaries using Them of with My Own Branding, Logo and Even Price Tag in it. Used Nothing New, Just using the same Stapler pins, Same Covers of Notebooks and everything that is waste.
How I am Supposed to be Dumb,
I Don’t Think I am Dumb, or Anyone Around me, Any Single One Around me, Including Animals & Insects are supposed to anything even Near to Dumb,
We are Humans (A kind of Animals), We are not Gods,
Everyone Around have Some Positives, Some Negatives,
It is Not Something that You can Do and Other Cannot, which will result to Declare Him/ Her a Dumb.
You are Gifted
You are Very Able,
That’s really great
But The Other Person Who Can’t Do What You are Able,
is Not Dumb,
He is Just Differently Abled.
He is Strong Enough,
Somewhere Worst Than You,
But Also Somewhere Best Than You can Ever Be.
So, My Mind, and All My Readers,
You are Strong Enough,
I Know, Somewhere you can be Just Close to Stupid or Something,
But, There is Always a Thing,
Always there will be something, You will be not Good at, You will be Best at.
ENHANCE IT AND
Be Strong Enough.
From , Ankush Anand’s Secret Conversation with His Mind.
??Holy Shit, You Just Read my Mind, You are really Able.?